Friday, 17 October 2014

The tale of the mad woman and the slaughtered phone

Once upon a time, there lived a beautiful princess called Alison.

*yeah alright you are going to have to use your imagination for this one - Jeez*

Like all ladies of her time she had an olde worlde device called a mobile phone. She loved this mobile phone as she used it to chat to all manner of friends (some she had never met and were probably just stalkers taken with her youthful beauty).

It was forever close to her and in random poppets of time she would access the world inside her phone for a few minutes here and there:
  • Waiting for the kettle to boil she would send a message on What's App 
  • Running late for school she would stop mid frazzlement and make her children pose by an interesting leaf for Instagram #interestingleaf #posingchildren #iamredinfacefromrunningtomakebell #shouldgetupearlier #butIlookperfectonInstagram 
  • Cooking up a mean stir fry, she would boast about her cooking endeavours on Twitter 
  • When tidying up the sloppy mess of mushy vegetables and chewy chicken that no one ate, she would hunt down new recipes she'd never make on Pinterest 
  • Skiving from the bath-time madness in the pretence of fetching a towel from the dryer, she would catch up on the vital 20 minutes she had missed on Facebook
  • And finally when all her children were slumbering in their beds, she would start boring everyone on her random musings on blogger - her mum and her sister were apparently fans (or so they said when pissed pressed!) 
Like every beautiful princess, there was a mean baddie out to steal her fun. In this particular tale it was a little boy called Gabriel.
The scary baddie
Gabriel would steal her phone at every opportunity and when he was bored of phoning all her friends and leaving heavy breathing messages and tweeting out pictures that looked like blurry bums (but were just interesting leaves) he would throw the phone and giggle as it smashed (mwahahahaahhaha).

The princess would be distraught as it would take at least three minutes for the scattered battery to load back up. Slowly, over time though the battered phone started to take longer to load back up, and its features became frailer and less effective. It was clear that it was ill, perhaps even dying.

First it stopped accessing What's App (it's too big for me now it said), then it would only load the first 20 tweets on Twitter (soz it sobbed) and recently it would flash error messages on Facebook (I feel so bad but it’s all too much, it wheezed). The end was nigh though when its volume control went and the beautiful princess would have to do a Dom Jolly impression - WHAT. I CAN'T HEAR YOU!? if someone rang on the street and a car passed.

It was becoming more of an ornament than a mode of communication.

She knew it was time to replace her faithful old friend but with a big birthday looming she held off on getting a new one in case any of her rich princess friends brought her the latest iPhone 6 (this is a fairy tale after all).

With no phone to play with in those spare moments in the day, the princess had to find other things to keep her busy. It was a strange old time. She found herself doing weird random things:
  • She started to get obsessed by storage and kept buying all manner of plastic boxes and Aldi ottomans 
  • She started getting house envy from buying posh interiors magazines and would bulk order from Next Home 
  • She would then spend the rest of the week arranging couriers to send items of furniture back (there was no room with the plastic boxes)
  • She painted the kitchen door - badly as she couldn't be bothered to sand it down so it had a snazzy marble effect
  • She organised the children's underwear drawers
  • She went to all five supermarkets in her area looking for bargains - and saved £2.33 (but spent £30.55 on posh magazines)
  • She managed to actually clean the bathroom a couple of times a week. She even scrubbed the grouting in the tiles.

The moral of the tale:

Life with no mobile phone is terribly dull and boring; having a clean bathroom and painted kitchen door is not the road to happiness; supermarket shopping makes you crave wine and there are no hottie courier men (only pissed off ones who are sick of coming to your house).

P.s. Houses look well crap with loads of plastic boxes everywhere. Timeless fact.

Wednesday, 1 October 2014

Patience: wherefore art thou patience?

Patience. It has left the building.

I knew it would eventually. Impatient git.

Although I have never been the most tolerant of women (think slow walkers and call queues), having children has tested me to the limits at times.

Take last night as an example. I had a grumpy little boy up in the dead of the night. He was outraged by the fact he had done a poo. But this was no ordinary poo. No. This was a stealth poo. It took half an hour of him wriggling and flicking me in the face for me to realise it was lurking underneath. After I had freshened him all up (not a problem my little gorgeous prince), I settled him beside me for some squishy, sleepy cuddles to help him drift back to the land of nod.

Or so I thought.
Replace squishy with kicky,
And sleepy with wide awake,
Cuddles with grumbles,
And land of nod with Isle of you are a fool if you think you are getting any more kip.

Three hours later,
My patience was wearing out.
What am I saying - my patience had picked up rational and gone and slept in another room.
It was a long night.

Since becoming a mother, especially a mother to a child like Gabe, I've had to dredge up patience from the pit of my stomach. But there is an overdraft - it just means that someone else like my husband gets the love later (the - do not even think of putting that cup on that mantelpiece without a coaster you big loser - type of love).

I can't be alone so I've devised this Just 17-style quiz just to see where all the other moody mummys are. Want to see what type of mother (or father) you are?

The Comp Gorg how patient are you really quiz?

Scenario 1

You are knackered (quelle surprise!) and fancy a little quiet sit down with a brew (you are an optimist after all) but your three children are simultaneously jumping from sofa to sofa, knocking all the DVDs off the shelves and telling you repeatedly that they are hungry. The jumping bean suddenly jolts the tea cup from your hand all over your new rug.

Do you?:
A. Smile sweetly, shake your head in a minor exasperated fashion saying: "these things happen" as you fetch the carpet cleaner. You clear up the mess with minimum fuss, before making a healthy snack for the hungry children and commencing sensory play for all three.
B. Run out of the living room and weep loudly in the kitchen until you have calmed down and can face the world again with the aid of a Double Decker.
C. Smile sweetly at children and then send angry texts to your husband. Because it is all his fault.

Scenario 2

You've done the school and nursery drop off by the skin of your teeth and now need to race to work. However, someone has blocked in your car in the nursery car park. You can see them through the window having a chat with the nursery teacher, now their child, now another mum, now a different mum. You were already going to be late. And with every creeping second, it is getting later.....

Do you?:
A. Put the radio on and enjoy the peace for a bit. Use the time to think of fun things to do with the children later like making puppets from the P45 you will probably get when you arrive in the office. Hey ho!
B. Start sobbing and hunt in your bag for that chipped Minstrel you noticed yesterday left over from a trip to the cinema. And there is a half chewed Refresher bar in the bit by the hand brake; that will do.
C. Smile sweetly at the woman and then send angry texts to your husband. Because it is all his fault.

Scenario 3

Your mother in law is coming around and you have tidied every nook and cranny and even sorted out the stored clothes under your bed. All you ask for is for the house to remain tidy for the first five minutes. After that you don't care. But daughter has decided now would be an ace time to play an epic game of card shop laying cards on every available space, son has weed all over the toilet seat, and the littlest one has pulled all the DVDs off the shelf (it is kind of his thing).

Do you?:
A. Tidy up the 507 cards, wipe the toilet seat (floor, walls, blinds: aim ain't great yet) and pick up the DVDs for the 309,876 time singing nursery rhymes before ruffling each child's head and calling them messy pups.
B. Flounce into the garden wailing, taking with you the Sara Lee Double Chocolate Gateau you've defrosted for desert and hide in the play house until midnight.
C. Smile sweetly at the peed up bathroom and then send angry texts to your husband. Because it is all his fault.

Isn't this a great game Mum. Shall we play every single day!

Mostly As
Do you have children called Topsy and Tim? Or is your name Granny Murray? Come on, you are not a real live person are you? Please say you are not. Please. No. You can't really exist. Do you do yoga at 5am, followed by Zen studies. Bravo. Hats off to you.

Mostly Bs

Welcome, my friend, to parenting. Tears and that chocolate cupboard are your only true friends from now on. My advice: always have Wispas. And wine. At a push Jaffa Cakes (if you are desperate). Embrace this new lifestyle and your fattening bum.

Mostly Cs

You are right. It is all his fault.

Gabe says: "So let me get this right, we are really called Topsy and Tim?"

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Sunday, 28 September 2014

Cilla: surprise, surprise

A strange thing happened to me this week. I found myself sniffling joyfully at Cilla, the ITV three-part drama about Cilla Black.

I know. I know!

How can this be? Although I did cry at the Coleman sauce advert as well this week so my cheese-monitor can't be trusted.

Even though Sheridan Smith is just fabulous and the love story between Cilla and Bobby is really cute I was surprised (surprise, surprise) to find myself swept up in bittersweet nostalgia

You see the whole show reminded me of my Dad. My lovely Dad who I lost 13 years ago.

And I miss my Dad. Lots.

My husband thought I was a loon bucket as I sat there dabbing my eyes and saying stuff like "the unexpected hits you between the eyes!"

Anyone who has lost a parent will tell you that it is the silly stuff that catches you out. The unpredictable thing when you are least expecting it - that's the surprise you seesurprise, surprise (sorry! I'll stop!). Sometimes those memories can be painful but then at other times, they are worth their weight in gold.

The show took me back to a time when my Nan (my Dad's mum) had a stall in a local market selling fur coats and pink fluffy negligees (back in the day when both were acceptable). I loved going to that market. I loved the banter and bartering. I mostly loved going around the other stall holders, my Nan's mates, who would give me 50 pence to spend on the toy stalls. It was beyond ace on toast.

There was one stall holder that held particular fascination - a lovely lady called old Cilla - whose daughter hosted a show on a Saturday night that we could stay up for. I was in awe of the fact that my Nan was friends with her.

I would pester my Dad for information but she was just always Cilla from the block to him (before Jenny got in on the action). My Nan was not so shy and would regale us with stories - usually putting herself in the epicentre (she was pretty cool my Nan).

Cilla, Alan and Old Cilla. Source: Daily Mail

Getting a slice of your childhood handed back to you on a plate on a Monday night is quite a gift. Especially as I get older and my links to my Dad's family become less and less. His stories are not shared as they once were. But for two nights recently I've been thrust into them again and I felt like I had him in touching distance. Precious stuff.

So who is joining me for the final part of the series tomorrow? Look out for old Cilla's chums in her parlour.

If the unexpected brings a smile.
That's a big surprise.
Surprise, surprise!

Gabe says: "Anyone got any idea what she is talking about? Anyone? Nope! Nor us.
But I do like the sound of those pink negligees."

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Thursday, 18 September 2014

Listen to the mustn'ts, then listen close to me

Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. 
Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. 
Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... 
Anything can happen, child. Anything can be.” 
Shel Silverstein

I stumbled on the above quote a couple of years ago when I liked to torment myself by trawling through special needs forum boards. A lady whose child had just been diagnosed with muscular dystrophy posted it. She said even though her boy had just been given one of the cruelest death sentences and they would have to watch as his active body slowly wasted away, she was not giving up. She was not giving up on believing in the impossible.

Waiting on test results for the same disease for Gabe, her strength and determination sowed a seed.

Anything can happen, anything can be

Our environmental conditions weren't right back then to make that seed grow. It was a bleak desperate old time. We struggled to put one foot in front of the other. Jobs, our beautiful other children, friends and family were just the backdrop to the relentless turmoil that was looking after Gabriel.

It physically and mentally consumed us. 

He was ill every day for the first two years of his life. His chest was constantly infected and a hacking cough would bring back every ounce of milk and every milliliter of medication (ironically needed to stop the vomiting and cough) within minutes. Then the process would have to begin again. Over and over, hour after hour. All day and all night. Every day. Every night.

There was no sign of it ever abating. 

It seemed back then that there was only one possible conclusion to this nightmare. It was suggested by the medics that this was something Gabriel would not be able to overcome. It wasn't just the illnesses, it was the inability to even hold up his own head or acknowledge his surroundings. He wasn't developing at all. Things, they hinted, would get worse before they got better. 

We took shifts to stay awake downstairs beside his cradle for the first year. He was in most pain and distress through the night. Sometimes we would nod off, then wake frantically to check he was still there, still breathing and hadn't choked on the secretions, which he had no strength to control. Prayed that we hadn't let him down by sleeping on our watch.

It became a new normal. But sometimes, in the dead of night while the world slept on, the injustice of the situation would be overwhelming. It felt like we were just delaying the inevitable, prolonging the torment and that every second with him was so precious but yet more painful.

The worse form of torture is one that is sustained, one that you know with certainty will begin again with each new day with little hope of an end.

The doctors were stumped. They didn't know what was wrong. Just that it was so very wrong. As predicted things did get worse. He survived two intensive care stays, we introduced a feeding tube, we continued mopping up his vomit with practiced hands and we waited on test result after test result. The joys of the lottery of life-limiting paediatric diseases. 

Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts.

But then things gradually started to get better. Slowly and slowly. 
His milk protein allergy diagnosis was a turning point. There came many more.
It was as if the claws of the vicious cycle he had been in were slowly releasing him.
  • He started to put on weight, to show an interest in food, to go from refusing his bottle to swigging its remains and demanding more
  • He began to hold up his own head, then roll. Slowly he began to sit, discovered his flair for bum shuffling and just this week has learnt how to get himself up from lying to sitting. His first, but hopefully not last, transition through positions
  • He began to babble, then sing his lar lar lars. He deemed it important to master "let's go" and "no, no, no". He now shouts "hiya, alright?" as his dad walks through the door
  • He didn't at first realise his hands were his, would scream at the merest brush, then would spend hours admiring but not using. Now no reachable surface remains unflicked, untouched or explored

  • Unplayed with toys lay littered across the house, glaring remainders of inability. Now with glee they are being dusted, batteries sought. Three years' worth of birthday, Christmas and whim-based treasures are being introduced. With bursting hearts we watch as they are banged, bashed and discarded as designed.
The Forbes Daily that randomly prints each day from the tinkered with printer, the data usage always at critical status due to his phone-based shenanigans, the orange mush stains on my settee and the little bum that mops my floors, makes me very grateful every day. 

He still has a good way to go. Our life is governed by the mustn'ts and the don'ts and we have to work really hard at the shouldn'ts and the impossibles, but now we won't accept the won'ts.
Not anymore.
You see anything can happen, child. Anything can be.

Gabe says: "Just off to get my Forbes Daily, See ya"

Tuesday, 9 September 2014

How to feel like an old hag

I have to confess I have been feeling a bit less youthful in recent years. I've tried to figure it out. Could it be because I need to stop flicking through my phone when I wake up in the night (such a loser) or because I should have a bit less wine and a bit more water (or even more watery wine - known locally as a spritzer).

But then it hit me. I am feeling old because I am now *ahem* older.
I am going to let you in on a secret.
But you must keep it to yourself.
Are you sure you can? I know you like a little bit of a gossip!

Here it comes...
Are you ready?
In 6 weeks' time I am waving goodbye to the flirty thirties and I am about to enter with a heavy (ageing old bag) heart the naughty forties.

I know it's hard to believe what with me looking like the epitome of chic youthful glamour at all times.

Honestly mum, I'd say you were only 26.
What do you mean why am I laughing when I say that!

But as I say goodbye to this decade I have a few burning questions to ask:

1. Which joker called them the dirty thirties?
Because they are dirty but not for the reasons I hoped.

What started well with an amazing girls' trip to Amsterdam followed by a summer proposal from the boyfriend descended steadily and gradually into what shall for evermore be known as the Decade of Dirt. Everything pretty much begins and ends with poo. Or snot. Or grot. Then pee. And then back to poo some more. Kids are gross. No one told you that when you chuckled at your "funny" birthday cards on your 30th birthday and then started flicking through the glossy wedding mags. Oh no. Not one person mentioned the sewage-like smell that fugs up your baby years when you were sniffing Jo Malone scents in feffing Selfridges as you spent your Dirty Flirty Thirty birthday vouchers.

2. Where do all the old bags go?
I have been quite content to snuggle down with a Chinese takeaway and Simon Cowell for most of the past 10 years. And the advent of the box set has sealed the fate on any instigation of a trip to the pub. Yet there has been a bit of a renaissance of late as my gang from school starts hitting the geriatric heights of 40 too. We want to celebrate and mark this landmark birthday, but it has presented itself with a whole host of dilemmas.

 I am not nearly 40. I'm telling off you.

Where does one go when they are starting to think about buying shares in Botox? Yes - there is the local pub or a nice (yawn) restaurant, but we want to shake our timeworn thang without looking like we are auditioning for Cougar Town. Side shuffling in a trendy late night den a few weeks ago in what was the first of a batch of 40th birthday celebrations, I surveyed the 18+ years crowd and resisted the urge to ask if their mothers knew they were out. We sealed our antique status when we moved on to a quieter bar up the road and congratulated ourselves on the fact we'd remembered to bring our own tissues for the loo.

You can have ALL this cake metabolism but you
must make me skinny for next Saturday. Deal?
3. Why does my metabolism now sit on its arse and demand cake
I made it work hard in 2006 and then again in 2007 when I wanted to snap back to some vague semblance of a woman rather than a bowling ball. It was especially flogged big time after my little girl was born as I had a hen do in Marbella when she was a mere 4 months old. In a revenge attack in 2010 after Gabriel she flicked two fingers up at me and did a go slow. Now to get the mean old cow working you actually have to make her do lots of exercise. We all know that requires some effort so we've just called a truce and share Double Deckers.

4. How can I subtly ditch all these younger mates?

I don't know what has happened. A heap of my mates are now younger than me. Man alive they are ageing me with their early/mid thirties ways. I'm suddenly the old hag of the pack. I have lost a few peers from my age group along the way mostly for being a baby bore or forgetting to text people back for a couple of years. You can read my How to lose your friends guide here (I am obvs doing a series here). I still stand by the line "for the fair-weathered few that I have lost along the way, I have retained and gained friends worth a billion times more" but I just wish you were all a bit more wrinkly and not so jaunty (get in the sun girls quick so we can be twins. Go on I'll time you!)

5. Why am I getting poorer?
Why do I have less money now than I did a decade ago - everything is allocated. Even if there is anything spare they go into "pots" called the holiday fund or the "will we ever get a feckin kitchen extension" account. Every time you buy shoes you guiltily think this could go towards a day out with the children (just before you think blow that and buy them anyway).

6. What's going on with the growing population of slugs?
I can't stop worrying about random crap. It is like my brain has woken up to the fact that yes the world can be one huge, dark and scary place but feck it I am going to worry about important stuff like slugs (is it just me but is there an alarming amount of slug slime on the streets today; are they going to take over the world). Yes there is widespread poverty and war, but I'm going to ponder on what will happen if I call the Street Cars number in Coronation Street (I may have done this) or I am going to lie awake in the night fretting about whether I have missed the start of the new series of Scandal (have I, have I?).

7. Did I get any wiser?
Unless discovering that you do actually have to sand the paintwork before glossing it (I thought that was an urban legend) and even "outdoor" plants need water (who knew) I don't think I have any wisdom to impart. Well maybe just this: never eat yellow snow.

Gabe says: "Do you want to know something hilarious?
I told mum she only looked 26!" Sucker!

Forty is the old age of youth; fifty the youth of old age.

Wednesday, 3 September 2014

Wicked Wednesdays: more crap photos

I am so happy to link up once more to Brummymummyof2's Wicked Wednesdays as one thing I am good at is rubbish photos.

While the hubby got some crackers on his phone and the family camera - this is just one of many terrible offerings from my phone camera of our summer holiday.

Secret under the table pictures. Cause I am really creative and all that! This was at a beach bar.
The beach was gorg - obvs you prefer seeing my hubby's hairy knee


Tuesday, 2 September 2014

How to annoy your mother in five easy steps

An excerpt from the early memoirs of Prime Minister Gabe, leader of the free world. Then aged 3 and three quarters. A letter to his first ever school friend Dylan.

Yo Dylan!
How are you doing my main man? I've had the most fabbulious summer holiday but have missed hanging out with you my buddy. No one seems to wanna play with mud or smear crazy soap over their head with me. When we go back to school tomorrow we are not going to be the little ones anymore. We are going to rule the school like the Fonz or the T-birds (I've been watching dodgy 3am telly with my mum again). Babies smell. We are gonna be like cool dude pre-schoolers. Anyone from the Nursery Year (aka the losers) coming on to our bit of the carpet better beware! Or have Peppa Pig books to give us as tokens of their loyalty.

Hello, hello. What's your name? Are you from the poo poo nursery
side or dude preschool side?

Mud rocks!
I've been having a busy summer and like found out loads of new stuff that I can do. Do you know what has been the bestest fun - winding my mummy up on the most epic scale. You've got to get in on some of this action mate - it's been cracking me up. Let me tell you some of the coolest tricks I've learnt.

1. Demanding the phone at all times

This one has legs but I've upped my game of late. As soon as she brings out her phone and starts the plinky plonking I've perfected full on OUTRAGE. If I screech really loudly in her ear and arch my back lots then she tends to give in and give it to me. And this is the best bit. I've worked out that if I press the button at the top it allows me to make the ringing sound and hear all the voices go "hello, hello, hello". It cracks me up. Remember though even when you're a bit bored of it - don't give it back. Hide it behind you - she'll never find it. And if she goes to snatch just hold it above your head and let it crash down - it's great as it does a brill smash all over the floor.

Woah stop the bus - forget the phone - who is that?!

2.  Switching off the TIVO box in the middle of The Good Wife or Game of Thrones

I loves this one. l am the master of this. Wait until your mummy is all comfy on the couch with a cup of tea. Then come out of no where like the Brotherhood without Banners (gosh Game of Thrones is fabby) and bum shuffle really fast to press the big red button on the box under the telly. Wait until she is all comfy once again and thinks you are playing with your toys and then sweep in again. Top laughs.

3. Waking up just as she goes to bed

Tell me this - how come we are little and have to sleep in a bed all by our own and they are big and get to share. What the blink. I am not having that. I don't mind having a little snooze in my cot while they potter doing their thing downstairs but once they are climbing into bed - I want in. Sometimes they try and leave me but if you cry like really really REALLY loud they break. If that fails mate - just do a poo. That always works a treat. Once in the middle of their bed, make yourself all comfy by putting your head right next to mummy's nostrils and putting your feet up on her belly. Again wail loudly if she tries to move. It's well good. Everyone gets a lovely sleep.

My bed!

4. Refuse outright to go in the pram, highchair or even on the floor

Now listen carefully as this one is important and a skill I've only recently acquired. But it's worth its weight in gold. You know how sometimes you just don't wanna go in the highchair or whatever because you are busy turning the TIVO box on and off - well just don't let them do it. It is ace. Make your body go all straight and stiff so not even the strongest man in the world can bend you (which just for the record ain't daddy). Watch out though as mummy sometimes pulls a fast one and uses my straightness to sneak in some standing practise. And we know that's physio - and physio should be resisted on all levels. Just cause.

5. Pulling off glasses, hair and everything that is neatly stored on reachable shelves

I didn't like touching things before but now it is brill. You can use your hands to do stuff like pull off mummy's glasses or sunglasses and throw them on the floor (she especially loves it when out and about). Just before she tries to put you back in the pram, change tactics and start pulling her hair especially those little fluffy ones at the back of her neck. If you are dumped on the floor, use your time wisely to go room to room pulling all the DVDs and books off the shelf. Someone will always kindly put them back so you can go and do it again a bit later. Don't forget if you see any type of cup on the floor grab it quick - you get a gold star if you manage to pour out any of the wet stuff especially on your head. It is very mega amaze if you do it to the perfumed drink. Mummy does a funny squeal - it is beyond bonkers.

Obvs there is loads more annoying stuff to do like refusing to eat any orange mush until they put on In the Night Garden and eating so slowly you get to watch two episodes (result!) but I'll show you all the rest of my tricks in person tomorrow.

Watch out teachers (and smelly nursery babies).

Love Gabe (aka the Fonz of the Early Years Unit)

I'm gonna rule the school

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My big brother's birthday bash

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